A Mindful Month : July 2019

A Mindful Month : July 2019

So June was a bit crazy! That seems to be the general theme of this year for me personally. Each month introduces a new monkey to the zoo that is my life and I’m really in the mood for new animals! Some diversity you know? So July for me is really going to be about figuring out who is she in the zoo and how we gonna work for the rest of the year.

Here goes 🙂

“The little things? The little moments? They aren’t little.”

Jon Kabat-Zinn

Mantra– “YOU GOT THIS” encouragement and empowerment are forming to be key pillars in how I manage or tackle things these days. All I need is to be reminded that I hold the power to help me navigate myself out of the circumstance I’m in. I’ve realised and more importantly truly believe that I am able to fix and heal myself and that the darkness is just part of the process.

aha! Moment – Sometimes I’m The Problem.  I think this realisation has brought me a peace I really needed and has opened my mind and heart to understanding and forgiveness , of myself and others. Here is the thing Distinguished, YOU CAN BE THE PROBLEM. I, regrettably, had to lose a few friends to learn this. Learning this also brought things to the surface that I am currently making decisions on, BUT I am very aware that my words & actions made people in my life make a hard decision on whether they actually wanted ME to be in THEIRS. Something they are SO allowed to do. It’s not the most tasteful beverage to take down…. but it’s the truth. I have had to be humble and accept. Thats the tweet.

Photo : @theinformalportfolio

goal –Imma tell you that I’m so hesitant to write a goal down because being accountable to it is giving me anxiety. I have had a thing thrown at me from left field that always get in the damn way! BUT, I just signed up with a life coach, he is also my uncle and deputy father and I’m both excited and scared. My goal this month is to give this new journey in self-dev a good honest try.

dream – Is to officially launch a product, campaign and event under the LOCHNATON brand. Watch this and many other spaces. Ask me about it please because ” I tend to forget”.

Photo: @theinformalportfolio

Thats my mind for July , what are you keeping at the top of your mind this month?

Peace be with you x

a mindful month-end : June 2019

a mindful month-end : June 2019

at the end of last week I was making a plan to catch up with friends I haven’t seen in a while and check in with my doctors for check ups , check ins and unfulfilled appointments. Little did I know on Sunday afternoon I would receive a call that a long time friend who also happens to be a great friend’s husband, had passed on and the very next day I would be rushed to hospital from where we had gathered to pay respects to the family and start grieving our loss. As I lay in this here hospital bed , I am aware of the loss, the gravity of the proximity to it . But I haven’t started to really feel it. I know what has happened but it feels like its above me. All I care or can think to do is find the best way to be there for my friend , to continue to hold on to the great memories I shared with our friend, her husband, and to leave this hospital and do EVERYTHING I need to do to not return the same way I arrived.

attitude : GRATITUDE, I realise I am living on the prayer and positive thoughts & actions from so many people. a great many I don’t even know personally. This does not go unnoticed I am so humbled and appreciative because it is possibly your energy and good intentions upon my life that the gods use to continue to offer me chances in this life. Thank you Distinguished.

Luxury – Breathing. That and this new craving I have for sweet treats.

Oh Snap : We are now the adults in the room. This month alone I have watched a friend start a life with his new parter and some of the adult that comes with that, the other day my other friend lost a partner and now we are about to get in with all that brings. I go to the Dr with my parents , I sign my own consent forms. The doctor asks me a huge question and my parents look back at me and say ” Well…It’s up to you” and it’s not manipulation, they mean it sincerely. HOW DID WE GET HERE!!!?

Focus : Therapy, Rest and Healing. I need all these things to show up for myself and I really want to show up for my friend. I love you Rumbi. This is you, you got this. But, WE GOT YOU.

Rest In Peace M.A

I wish you a peaceful end to the first half of the year xo

A Mindful Month : February 2019

A Mindful Month : February 2019

Welcome to my Mindful Month series, it was inspired by one of my fave health and mindfullness blogs . I really wanted to share part of my mindfullness practice every now and then but struggled to balance the raw feeling you get by sharing what is mostly very personal shit and the accountability posting on my blog provides me. Tessa M , the lady that inspired and guided this practice does her post once a week, i aint there yet! So i settled on sharing with you a few things i have set my mind on at the beginning of each month.

Here goes 🙂

January is over. Thank you Lordt. Now we can finally start the year for real for real. Anyone who lives in Zimbabwe or has heard about the month the country has experienced will overstand the relief that comes with looking at the calendar and thinking “ Ok, lets hope that was the end of THAT!”

I have a lot of fun stuff planned for the next 28 days, as well as a few hard things to get past . We are finally getting into the year at work and the regular programs are making their way into the mix. New projects and opportunities are coming up almost daily so….yeah, “booked and busy” 🙂  

So the way this goes is i will share a lesson,mantra,goal or focus each month. This mix of intention, visualization and reflection has helped me keep in touch with myself as opposed to my past life where I would tend to bulldoze through life and never take a time out to check in. That hasnt served me well so this is one of the practices that helps me keep shit tidy!

“The little things? The little moments? They aren’t little.”

Jon Kabat-Zinn

Mantra– ”Don’t water dead  things” I’m not really sure where i heard this for the first time but it’s graduated into my life commandments! I recently had a series of personal experiences that put me off balance temporarily and in checking in to understand why i realized i was giving energy, focus and time to things that were dead and gone. The leaves were still green (ish), slightly limp, and that spoke to the part of me that thought i could save it. WRONG. The roots were gone. I was wasting water and shine that could have fed something that had a chance to live or a chance for something new to grow

I love  how you can apply it to most things in life. Friends, work, routines, goals, and dreams. Things that have a chance to survive will respond positively to the attention you give them within a reasonable time. If it  doesn’t respond at all, even when it looks kinda alive…Well..it’s dead boo.

affirmation – ”Peace Is Yours ”.  As I was spinning from the experiences hinted at above , noting my distress, a friend of mine  said “ Peace Be With You” and i felt the sentiment in a way i never have before. Or ever. Peace has become one of the things i value the most in life. I work hard to create, maintain & protect it because of how rare it has been. In a moment of distress or discomfort it’s what i pray for. So this month i affirm that peace will never be far away or rare because it is mine.

“don’t water dead things”

goal –Is to drop the last few kilos to reach my initial weight-loss goal. I did a lot of emotional eating in January and not enough exercising. Lucky for me it hasnt derailed any progress ive made in the latst 6 months but it definitely hasnt helped either!

dream –  Is to complete the final phase of moving into a new home. Ive been dreaming of this forever and Im so close but the closer i get the further it feels! But i can see the finish line finally and the dream is alive.

vision- Is the intro to what could possibly be career defining work, which includes travelling to different parts of Africa , something I really want to do . I visualise being fully engaged and absorbing all the positive things these trips will uncover for me professionally. This month is for preparing my mind and body to be present and active when the vision is real life.

Do you have a practice that keeps you focused or brings you peace. Please do share?

Peace be with you x

New me, is that you?

New me, is that you?

Me to myself, a year ago : “These people are actually trying to make this Tour De France look a thing ? It could never be me.”

Also me, yesterday : “Noreen, can you take a picture of me in these things?”

Noreen : ” Get on Dad’s car. I got you.”

Have you ever looked at a trend or hairstyle and thought to yourself, I could never do that? And you end up dismissing it because the real reason is because its your insecurities talking? Just me? Ok. Well…I’ve decided that this year is for trying whatever the fuck I want . Wanna join me?

who gon’ stop me boo?

So, here is a list of things I once believed I would never do in the aesthetics department :

-Wear braids or have natural hair , I thought it wasn’t my aesthetic. ( ma’am, have you seen how cute your girl looks in braids? Shiiyyyiiiiiiiit.)

-Shave the sides of my head. Always wanted to but thought….nah.

-Wear Tour De France 

These are real and true things I actually believed I would NEVER do. They were not “me”. At the time the images above did not match the one I wanted to project to the world. But guess what they did match? My actual true desires.

Part of facing yourself is asking yourself some really good questions. The one related to this post for me was, ” Why did you put yourself in a box Lo? Isn’t it bad enough that society already works overtime to do this for you?” I just had to over achieve, go above and beyond and do it for myself it seems. But why?

My answer ? Truth is I never took the time to sit and really get to know myself. Hell, your girl didn’t even try . I fully subscribed to who I thought I should be , what I thought I should look like etc because… well, because it was easier. The blueprint was already drawn , I just had to build from there. Trying to discover myself or nurture those lil’ voices in my head was scary and too much work. Worse, it was too different to what was “normal” or standard for me.

Guess what the crazy part was? No-one was really forcing me to be or stay in this box. Your girl was limiting herself. It’s me. Im your girl. The day I cut my hair or looked at myself with a head full of beautiful box braids not only did I look hella cute, I saw someone I wasn’t afraid to get to know anymore. I slowly started to realise that , those feelings were glorious moments of absolute freedom from precious concerns that I should have never held on to.

It’s still the beginning of the year and it’s that time where we are writing our lists of what we should or shouldn’t do to be that person we want to be. We are focused on making ourselves new again. I know I am. Putting on these 20 year old cycling shorts my mother let me have reminded me to listen to my inner voice and challenge the norm that I may create for myself out of fear and insecurity. I want to listen to the voice that says “try whatever the fuck you want girl!” .

Instead of daring myself to be different, im gonna dare myself to be…myself

I hope your new year has started off well even if it hasn’t started off as intended. More than that, I hope your new you, is your YOU you.

I think the excitement of doing something new and maybe a little dangerous is just what your psyche needs. Like me wearing cycling shorts (something new) sitting on top on my father’s favorite car (something a little dangerous)

I’m psyched.

What new and dangerous things are on your list this year?